What....
What would we do without friends?
I had thought I had no more friends...acquaintances, yes but real friends?
I think most of them have pretty much deserted me since my health plummeted...and I think I have let many of them just ...lapse....feeling I have had little to offer, feeling my life is so dull to them by comparison, feeling too ill and tired to try to maintain some of the lesser friendships that would usually pretty much dissolve at even the merest hint of discord.
But...then there are those long standing, deeply rooted, enduring friendships...
the kind of friend's who have seen me at my worst and love me in spite of it....who have seen the decline in my health and will worry rather than be put-off by it...friends who would lose sleep over me....pray for me....with me....stand by me....
...grow old with me...
There are newly found friends I've discovered thru this miraculous worldwide web...people I'd never have gotten a chance to know before the advent of the internet...I'd never have gotten acquainted with them thru travels....as I am virtually housebound....They have gotten to know me and I, them, warts and all....I feel so much less inclined to cloak my oddities and flaws as I seek more depth and reality in my relationships...as I see just how fleeting and precious life is.
These newfound friendships are no less enduring...as we blossom and unfold, unfurl....
growing in heart....
reaching toward....
sharing secrets, comfort, triumphs and sadness, joys and sorrows, laughter and tears,...
building trust
twining our spirits
I want to thank you my special friends...you know who you are...for loving me warts and all.
I love you so much.
